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Monday, May 14, 2012,5:57 AM
Company DnD had just passed, although it's unlike the dnd in previous company, as pharmacy only had less than 20 people turning up, but it was quite fun. =) We saw the dance that was prepared by all the new stuff including my pharmacists, I was like OMG. They wore high heels, had to dance very fast and even step on chairs to do catwalk. I was thinking if next year Lina and me were to dance, we will die for sure:p...
Recently I've been having kneecap pain...not sure whether it's osteoporosis or arthiritis, hope I'll recover soon and not limp during work again, feels embarassing...
Friday, May 4, 2012,4:08 AM
Back from Korea
4th May 2012, 6.54pm
I'm finally back from my 8 days korea trip! I had a lot of fun and shopping when I was there, spend quality and quantity time with my dear and family.=)
This is my first time to long distance country and I really enjoy the scenary and weather in Korea. This trip make me closer to his sister and I hope our relationship continues to remain so. =) Food in Korea was terrible, except for their ginsheng chicken and bbq, really missed Singapore's food when I was there. The theme park there was fun even though I didn't dare to sit all the rides, felt a bit guilty that they all can't sit on those scary rides because of me. :p
Hope this 8 days of good memories becomes an energy source for me as my dear's busy schedule starts again next week. =) We have been together for 6 months, these 6 months have been a roller coaster ride for me, my emotions, my feelings have been going through ups and downs. However, I didn't realise, how tired you were when I started to throw temper because you didn't had enough time for me. I will, hang on there and support you, at least till you finished your studies.
P.S: I love you.
Sunday, April 22, 2012,8:51 AM
22 Apr 12, 11.30pm
It's late at night, but still can't sleep. It may be due to I'm excited about my Korea trip in 3 days time and it can also be my English exam preparations.
I spent a few hours walking in and out of sister room to obtain the things which I'll be needing in Korea, thinking of what clothes to wear and ironing my clothes. It's the first long distance trip in my life and I'll be going with your family and you. I hope it'll be a good trip although it's not just the two of us. :p What's matters most is everyone's safety and have fun during this trip I guess. Recently, I have been feeling better, maybe it's because I said out my feelings that night. I know it's not going to be easy for both of us but at least I know that at this moment, I'll still be putting in efforts. Really hope that we can have a nice trip for ourselves, maybe with a few friends and not big gatherings again, maybe next year or so.
English O level is another concern for me currently, Ms. Laura have been a very nice teacher. I hope that I won't disappoint her and get good results. After I've received my result, I don't know what should I study. School fees will be a major problem, only way that I can pay is from bank loan, but if it's that case, will I still be able to contribute to my family allowance. It's only left sis and me who are working in this family, if I don't contribute, her allowance won't be enough to support whole family. Even if I borrow bank loan, what if I fail my degree course? I need courage to push myself forward because I know a Diploma cert won't bring me to any higher position. But if I get a degree relating to my course, I can't become a pharmacist either, it's so confusing. Maybe that's life, we have to analyze, take the step and bear the consequences of our decision ourselves.
Well, too much to think in the night, should sleep early, have to work till 8pm tomorrow.
Saturday, April 14, 2012,8:34 AM
14 Apr 12, 11.34pm.
Finally, I had a good talk with you last week and sorted out my thinkings recently. =) At least now I know that I can't hint things to you, instead I've to tell you directly..-_-'' But I got your point of, you really do not have time for me. I hope that both of us compromise each other, when you're having exams or projects, I won't bother you, but when you're having your holidays, I hope you still remember me.
I had my first English tuition lesson today and it was good. Lesson went well, teacher was very nice and most importantly I understood what she was teaching. =) This is just the starting of my study journey after graduating from poly a few years ago. I hope that by next year, after my O level result is out, I'll know what degree course to go for. Today after my lesson, I came home and studied my notes, keep looking for meaning of words in dictionary.com. It will be helpful and useful for me if I improve on my vocabulary and learn maybe 20 to 30 new words per day. =)
Saturday, April 7, 2012,9:08 PM
8th Apr 12, 12.08pm
I've so much things that I want to talk to you but have no chance. Even if I do say it out when you can find the time for me, you won't listen either. Even if you listen, you can't or won't do anything about it either. Just want to be quiet and don't say anything currently, as if that there's no problems between us. Just want to treat myself as a sponge and maybe I can just absorb in all the unhappiness and problems.
Experience doesn't help much here, I can't feel it, I can't feel your love or effort that you've put in. I'm like a stone, with no feelings, starting to slowly build up my defense wall because I don't want to get hurt and cry anymore, I'm tired. Why can't you just understand that family or friends gathering is not dating? Maybe they are really much more important.
The places I want to go with you...tons of them, want to record it down so that maybe, just maybe we might have a chance to go together one fine day. I know in your mind, there's no place that you can think of that you want to go with me, but it's fine.
Places/restaurants list
1. Botanic garden
2. Sushi express
3. Just Acia
4. Clunny park
5. Charlie Brown cafe
6. to be continue....
Saturday, February 25, 2012,9:56 PM
26 Feb 12, 1.56pm.
Today I finally said out what I have been wanting to know, how much do I really mean to you? You were correct about I'm not materialistic, doesn't care about branded stuff or are you even rich at all or not. But you didn't realise how simple I am. Ppl around me have been asking about our stuff and tells me to set my expectations higher. But, I believe that, in a relationship, it's very important for both of us to communicate, and not only about expectations. Communication is not just about saying what you want to say, but also about listening. I don't need too much, I only need someone's who is able to communicate with me. A person with little words, only hopes that when he/she speaks, ppl is listening to her attentively.
When I asked you, how much do I actually mean in your heart, you wasn't able to answer me, I guess I know what's the answer already. I hope that we'll have a better path ahead and won't let go unless it's necessary, because I still remember telling you that we'll go through the obstacles together hand in hand.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012,6:27 AM
22 Feb 12, 10.30pm.
It has been quite some time since I came in to write about what I feel and went through today.=)
Work has been quite the same and I've already gotten used of the pace and stress that I had to face in pharmacy. I felt a sense of relieved that I didn't give up on what I want when I looked back at what happened 1 year ago. When I just entered the industry, I thought that I won't be able to pass the probation..:p but now, I think that at least my life in pharmacy has been quite smooth sailing. I understand that there will be more challenges ahead but I'm willing to go through it.
Today, Lina was asking me, should we go retake our O Level English, I feel quite motivated, especially if we want to take up science degree in future. =) I hope that Jie's tuition teacher will not be charging as expensive as the british council, then at least I can save a sum of money up. =)
Other than studies plan, today I felt quite angry with PL, at normal times I don't mind her pushing us around when we are working, but she caused my pharmacist to misunderstand me. It was just a simple matter and I did my job by informing her, then in the end I get the blame..-_-''
I wanted to tell you, but as always, I know that you were busy with your work, studies and other stuff so I didn't in the end. I don't know am I really understanding or not but sometimes when I said that it's ok, it's actually not ok at all. I just don''t want to quarrel or add to your worries. A phone call per week is not enough to sustain the whole relationship, but I don't know what else can I do. Maybe to change my perspective and expectations will help to make myself happier.
Hope that tomorrow is a happier day with a fresh start. =)
